Friday, November 12, 2021

PUERTO VALLARTA

 

The seaside village of Puerto Vallarta sits on what is little more then a wide beach just where the mountains drop into Banderas Bay.   Anyone my age first heard of Puerto Vallarta when Elizabeth Taylor, Richard Burton and Ava Gardner went there with John Huston to film “Night of The Iguana” sometime in the sixties.  Tennessee Williams lived and wrote in Mexico off and on for many years as well, he may have been through the little village in his travels, in any case it was Huston who set William’s story in Puerto Vallarta.   Even today you can catch the bus from ‘PV’ down the highway to the village of Mismaloya and walk along the beach to the stairs that lead up to the location of Ava Gardner’s little hotel in the film.  The foundations of the hotel are still there, a little below the actual crest of the bluff, no longer recognizable. 

Poking around the ruins of the film set I wondered where the location of the beach was where Ava Gardner cavorted with coital intent with her two handsome Mexican beach boys.   According to the legends of the time, Ava Gardner cavorted with real life Mexican beach boys much as she did in the film!  Today a nice restaurant that offers beer at cost twice as in the rest of Mexico sits on the top of the bluff and looks down on the remains of Ava’s hotel and the beach below and a wonderful view of the Southern part of Banderas Bay. 

The publicity surrounding the making of the film was intense.  Burton and Taylor, who had just completed making “Cleopatra” in Egypt where they had began their world famous affair, had come to Mexico to make “Night of the Iguana” so that Burton would not have to go home to his wife.  They bought a house on the mountain side overlooking what is now the Malecon – today a section of Puerto Vallarta - but then an empty stretch of sea coast.  

The contemporary world press, breathlessly following the lurid goings-on described the village of Puerto Vallarta as an Eden of tropical splendor, undiscovered by the outside world.  Of course, after the film was released, Puerto Vallarta became the vacation destination of Choice, surpassed only by Acapulco.  

Because the original village was hemmed in so closely between the mountains and the bay the new  tourist city could not expand around it, and gradually destroy it, as other Mexican beach towns have been destroyed.  Instead, the  development moved toward the north leaving the Village, intact. The newly famous village gradually become a small city and spread north up the beach from where the original village, called Olas Altas stood, spread across the Rio Ameca and up the coast.  .  The first part of the new development, just across the Ameca river from Olas Altas, is called the “Malecon” above which the Burton- Taylor house still stands. 

The Malecon area has no good sandy beaches so a sea wall was built with a broad walkway at its top and a street full of shops across the street from the sea wall. 

The tourists that the now famous little city began to attract were housed in large hotels that were quickly built further up the beach to the north of the Malicone, but still along the inner curve of the clam shell shaped Banderas Bay. 

The houses in which the Mexican people would live and from whence they would come everyday to work in the shops along the Malecone, and the big new hotels on the Northern beach, were built across the main highway and inland, to the east. 

Several months after my first visit to PV on my way North I would rent one of these little houses for two long happy months.

 I arrived in Puerto Vallarta on the bus from San Blas, a coastal village north of Puerto Vallarta where development had made no inroad and where the bus station remained across the street from the Zocalo.  I had been in San Blas some time, became used to its slow way of living, and finally bored with its Mexican beach life I decided to move on south to Puerto Vallarta. 

As had become used to the sleepy Mexican villages of the Baja Peninsula and along the coast of the Galfo de California  it was a surprise to find the large new bus station of Puerto Vallarta, newer even then the airport and further out to the North of the town.  Unlike most Mexican towns it was necessary to take a bus form the bus station to the old part of the town.  On the phone from the bus station I had trouble getting a hotel room, the first such trouble I had traveling in Mexico.  After calling several hotels from my “Lets Go” guide, I settled on a hotel that was recommended by the "Spartacus Guide" to gay venues around the world.  The hotel that the Spartacus Guide recommended, the Vallarta Cora Hotel, was the hotel that I had been most attracted to when I first started to read about Puerto Vallarta in my guide books.  In San Blas I had rejected it as to expensive.  The Vallarta Cora, according to the guide, was exclusively gay.  I wasn’t sure what that meant but one of the hotels attractions was identified by the “R” symbol, which means, in Spartacus, “Rent Boys”.  Spartacus also listed rooms with separate bedrooms and a kitchen.  I decided that I would afford the price of over three hundred pesos, and looked forward to cooking for myself.   

 

          The Vallarta Cora Hotel is located up a steep hill on the Main Street of the old town, a street also called Olas Altas, at the extreme Southern end of the old village.  Now the hotel is looked down on by houses and even smaller hotels that have been built on narrow winding roads that lace the mountain slopes overlooking the beach. But when I arrived it was still the last building up the hill where the main street ended. 

The Vallarta Cora is a small hotel with four floors built around an interior court yard containing a miniature swimming pool, which, the Spartacus guide told me was “clothing optional” from sunset to sunrise (after the Mexican maids are gone for the day).

There was no one in the hotel office when I arrived.  I wondered deeper into the complex, around the pool and into what appeared to be a restaurant where a French woman fed me breakfast and coffee while I waited for Mario, the owner, to return and get me settled in one of the apartments.

  

           In the afternoon I set out to discover what I had read was the “gayest town in Mexico”.  I saw nothing that confirmed that description until I found “Porque No?” a gay bar noted in Spartacus just north of the river. 

         The Porque No? was quiet in the late afternoon.  I talked to the bar tender, a tall, sweet, skinny, kid named Carlos as I drank a beer.  I bought a second beer and climbed the stairs to the top floor roof bar to drink it in the late afternoon sun.  It was as I was crossing the roof toward a table overlooking the street that I first noticed Jose Luis sitting at the point of the outer curve of the empty U shaped bar. 

 

          Jose Luis was to become, for the rest of my year long trip in Mexico the man against whom all others would be measured. 

 

I sat down at my table overlooking the street and watched him.  He sat on the bar stool with his elbows on the bar. He apparently had not noticed me although we were alone on the roof as the roof bar had not yet opened.  He was tall and full bodied, his frame was not light as most young Mexicans are, his shoulders were broad in his work shirt and his chest was thick and muscular.  His hair was not shinny black but more a soft black-brown.  He looked more European or American then Mexican.  He sat leaning on the bar, slowly drinking a beer, seemingly lost in thought.  I watched him wondering if any purpose could be served by trying to break in on his silent consideration of the bottles on the back bar.  At last,  Unable to resist,  I walked over to the bar and sat across around the nose of the curved bar from Jose Luis.

          He was so concentrated on the back bar that I was able to study him with little attempt to conceal my interest. 

He wore glasses, rather heavy glasses with wire rims that made his eyes look enlarged looking at them through the thick lenses.  This, slightly owlish, somewhat intellectual look was a fascinating contrast to his broad shoulders and workman close and posture.  His face was rather more round than usually suggests great handsomeness to me in a man or a woman.  But there was something about Jose Luis!   He was handsome in only a certain way, but, to me, he was much more then handsome, much more!  To me he was stunning, fascinating! 

Perhaps it was his grin, for when I first sat down at the bar he shyly looked up and grinned at me. I smiled back and he returned to his reverie. 

After a while I asked him what time the bar opened and learned that he spoke almost no English.  When the bar tender finally did show up and opened the roof bar I introduced myself and bought Jose Louis a beer.  I felt shy with him as he was shy with me. I knew I was risking making a fool of myself trying to get him to pay attention to me.  But gradually we became comfortable and joked and teased one another as we made light work of communicating in Spanish and English, relying more on my Spanish then his English. 

Jose Louis was bright and he knew how to engage, to charm, in the sense that a beautiful child charms, and teaches the skill to the man or woman they will become.

He was from the coastal town of Cardenas, a town down the coast a little more then half way to Acapulco, he told me.   He was working in Puerto Vallarta temporarily.  I tried to get him to talk about his work but he refused to be descriptive.  I was left to assume he did manual labor as his close did not suggest any other kind of work. He told me he had just stopped in for a drink after work.  Possibly he thought of himself as an intellectual, or in some other way, better then a common laborer, and did not want to admit to me that he did manual work. He talked to me, and he smiled at me, and he was shy with me.  I would almost describe him as ‘sweet’, or kind, or sensitive but in such an energetic, masculine way that those words fall short!  I knew it would be easy to fall in love with this young man!  I knew at that moment that Jose Louis was why I was traveling - he was what it was that I needed!  As we talked I forgot about wanting his big handsome body!  Forgot any thing that might take me away from this moment at the roof bar, a moment that I had every reason to expect was all I would ever know of him.  I was happy just looking through his distorting glasses into his big brown eyes  while he glanced over across the corner of bar at me, I was happy watching as a thoughtful grin spread down his face.  First his eyes would catch it, then the lift of his ample cheeks pull up the corners of his big full mouth and finally his mouth opened.  When he was amused, even his big white teeth would part and a laugh would roll up out of his deep muscular chest.  I had no need for more of him.  I could have sat talking to him, looking at him, getting him to look directly into my eyes, getting him to laugh, then to go shy of our growing intimacy and look away from me. I could have sat there for the rest of my life!

   

          We drank a lot of beer, sitting there at the roof while evening fell slowly over the Olas Altas.  We were unnoticed by the men coming up to the bar, so it seemed to me.  Nor did Jose Louis look around or seem to notice who was coming in or leaving.  Other men must have admired Jose Luis, but he paid attention only to me.  His eyes strayed no further from mine then his glass of beer – even when I ordered another round he did not look up at the bar tender but waited for my attention to turn back to him.  Then he would look over at me and speak of what he had been thinking while I ordered.  We let the roof bar slowly fill up around us without noticing. 

Jouse Luis never lost his focus as we talked.  His magic grin was never shared with passers by.  We were like this for the late afternoon and the evening, intensely together, letting the elixir of beer help us merge deeper into each other.  I must have asked him about his life, perhaps I asked him if he was gay or bisexual, weather he liked older men, I sometimes do ask those questions.  I probably asked him about his family, his mother, brothers and sisters, his father, I usually do.  But if I did ask about all of that I don’t remember what he said after he told me he was from Cardenas. 

Language problems, if there had been any slipped away.

When it was late and we were quite on the way to drunk I invited him down two floors to the disco to dance.   As we danced and drank I was able to feel his body, my hand on large muscles of the small of his back, my hands holding his, his hands on my shoulders holding me at arms length, looking at me!  He knew the affect he was having on me and I have never been more full of desire for a man, and only one women!  I wanted the feel of his flesh in my hands and now even hoped for the look of his naked body under my eyes.

          We were resting under the fan, at the edge of the dance floor, leaning together, the sweat cooling our bodies as we talked, when the woman that I met in the hotel, the French woman from the hotel, came by with a friend. I saw her recognize me and then look at Jose Louis!  She saw in him what I saw, she saw a woman’s man!  I could tell.  She introduced herself looking at Jose Louis then grinned at me and drifted on, I hardly noticed.

          I told him that the woman worked at my hotel and I asked Jose Louis to go there with me.  He hardly said anything; maybe he just looked at me and smiled.  It was as though it were perfectly obvious, as though I had invited him for yet another beer, or for yet another dance. 

I could not tell if his obvious, relaxed manner suggested great experience or simple denial of my intent. This strange uncertainty was one I was to feel often that year full of Mexican men. 

At the hotel I persuaded him with some difficulty that the pool permitted naked swimming after dark and he undressed, slowly and with some care!  We dove into the pool and splashed for several moments before he came toward me through the black water and I put my hands out and slid them around his ribs, under his arms. I put my hands onto his flesh, seen now only as a gray shadow against the water and the dark of the interior of the courtyard.  I let my hand settle down his sides and over his buttocks (it was round and solid) and then down and slowly up between his legs to fill my hand with great pendent testicals!   Then onto the magnificent roundness of his cock, already thick with the flow of blood, it hardened in my hand!  

I was mad for it! 

I settled him against the edge of the pool and lifted his legs so that the front of his body, supported on my hands, floated up out of the water and I lowered my mouth onto his cock, cold and tasteless from the water, but soon the warmth of it spread over my tounge.  He lay back, his elbows drawn back on the edge of the pool and closed his eyes.

In the room I laid him out on the bed on his back, with me on the floor on my knees between his legs.  I continued the sucking!  Sucking his cock and his balls, I used my teeth on the hard roots of his cock under his balls and then, pushing his knees up I explored with my tongue between the cheeks of his ass, settling his legs gradually over my shoulders.  The tip of my tongue reaching for his culjo!   Suddenly his head jerked up off the pillow I had put down for him.  “No!” he said.  “Si!” I answered and licked and tickled the tight muscles of his ass, looking up over his balls, and his cock hard and standing at an angle over his belly.  A frown fluttered softly over his face and he let his head back down on the pillow, and he must have closed his eyes.  Never had my mouth produced such juices, never have I wet a man so that my whole face slid effortlessly up, out of his ass to his testicals to capture his cock.  Now his own hands held his knees high and his ass open for me. 

I have often enjoyed a man body, open and wanting and loving my mouth, but I have never seen the absolute beauty of open cheeks and upraised legs as I did with Jose Louis.

He had put one hand on my head and directed where I would lick, and when to suck, moving my mouth from hole to cock to balls, then, when he could take no more, he pulled his cock out of my mouth with a wrench of his body and pulled me onto the bed while he himself got to its edge and stood.  He pushed me down onto the bed on my belly!  But I lay over onto my back and pulled my own legs up as his had been.  He came over me, hooking my ankles on his shoulders and hardly having to guide himself he pushed onto me without hesitation!  If he took care pushing up inside me I do not remember it, nor any pain.  I remember only the look on his face when he did it, the sensation of his big body undulating from knee to neck, thrusting, hotly, his head back his eyes shut, his mouth open, sounds of his pleasure dripping down into my consciousness. 

His orgasm seemed to start with a sudden opening of his eyes, a sharp looking down at me, a bulging, muscular, tension in his shoulders!  Then a shudder that convulsed his back and shocked his rhythm.   Then, hard inside me and deep as he could push, he stopped, absolute!  His frame shook and his sounds became guttural as though some scorching pain was tearing and convulsing his body and his face!  His belly and shoulders writhed and shuddered as his loins pressed hard down, into my ass!  

Stunned, and in love, lost to his overwhelming rhythms and the power and the force of his need, I wanted desperately for him to lie down on me and let my arms and hands and my wet kisses tell him what he had been for me, but he pushed up on his arms over me and slowly recovered himself, with his hands behind my knees he pushed himself back and out of me and stood upright.  I lay looking up at him!  I remember he shook his head and snorted in an odd way, like a stallion! He grinned down at me a grin that spoke of some embarrassment and some satisfaction, but mostly of a recovery of himself, and a withdrawal from me.  He laughed, almost derisively, and pointed toward my ass and said:  “Condom!”  I realized that he had used a condom and that it was still in my ass!

 

He began looking for his close.  I asked him to stay but knew it was of no use.  At the door I gave him a hundred pesos.  “por el taxi,” I said, “no por el sexo!”  He grinned and accepted it as though it were to trivial to speak of. I walked him to the front gate and unlocked it, asking him to come back - I would have pleaded but it was no use.  He agreed that he would come back but I knew he would not!  He had already told me he would be returning to Cardenas within a day or two.  He grinned at me in a new, distant, way and said, “Adios”.   I watched him walk down the hill toward the Olas Altas and turn the corner into the village and away. 

 

Thursday, November 4, 2021

 

 

CROSSING TO MAZATLAN

Wednesday, July 15, 1998

Mazatlan, Mexico

 

   The crossing of the Bay De Cortez last night and this morning was magnificent!  Dolphin jumping and pacing the boat, flying fish skimming across the water in schools!  And a large manta ray, phosphorescent, in green and blue!

 

      I met a man from La Paz who was traveling to Puebla to take his daughter to visit her Grandmother In Puebla.  Louis told me he has a small monthly magazines in La Paz.  Interesting man!  Bright, lots of energy, he seemed to like me and I liked him.  He told me lots about Mexican politics and he knew Mexican history!  And he was ‘Woman crazy!’ He told me.

 

“Guuls!”  “You like Guuls, Lardy!”  “You come back to La Paz, I meet you to my friend Rosita!  She say to me, ‘I like an American! You meet good American you tell me!’ She be vedy good for you!  Vedy pretty, vedy hot.”  I say: “Quantos Anos?”  He says: “Rosita?”  I say:  “Si!” he is stilled for moment, then he says with vigorous certainty: “Rosita is twenty seven! Vedy pretty! You like!  You just say nice tings to her, she fuck you!”  I say:  “What kind of nice things?”   he says: “I love you!”  “You have most beautiful hair!”  “I tink about you all the time!”   I tell him that the more I like a woman the more difficult it is to lie to her.  “NO!” he says, “You treat a woman good she will not like you!  You have to lie to dem and ignore dem and be cold to dem. “be good to them day will tink something is wrong with you!  But if you lie to them and are cold to them and then you say: ‘Come here Rosita, I fuck you!’ Then she will come to you to make you happy!”

             

Louis was really a very bright and mad fellow I enjoyed talking to him and asked him many questions about Mexico politics. La Paz – he was born in La Paz and lived there all  his life.  He mentioned the girls of Cuba. He said he went to Cuba often. I had the impression his magazine was dependent on Cuban money. I liked him. 

            When it was late and dark he and his daughter went to bed down on the floor in a hallway I wondered off and began my night of wondering the decks of the ship. 

    I tripped over Louis and his daughter about four in the morning asleep.  I stepped over them.

            I could not sleep!  It was too exciting and I felt exotic! The Sea of Cortez!  Louis and I had talked all the way from the departure at 3:00 pm till about 1:00 am (when he found a very sophisticated mother with two beautiful daughters to talk to).  Out of  the Bay de La Plaz, into the Mar De Cortez, the water was so magnificent and clam and wonderfully colored - that deep translucent blue green that the water there has.  I guess I was transported in lots of ways.  This was the sort of thing I travel for!  The romantic kick, the odd, the wonderful and the unusual!  In this case the simple magnificence!  The views of the huge twisted desert mountain island moutains and the quite, white-sand bays and beaches and Louis at my shoulder saying.  “Ah, Laudy, Dat es my favorite beach!”  Pointing to some white strip of a cove beach only just accenting the moment of the mountains entry into the sea!  I take you daer when you come back!  You come back to La Paz?”  I say: “Si! La Paz es magnifico!”  He says: “like no other place in Mexico!  Baja es best!”  “Es gorgioso!” I say. 

There are islands that complete the outer perimeter of the Bay of La Paz and Louis has been on these islands and he had told me of the wild goats and sheep and coyotes and some small thing that is like a rabbit but is not rabit, and the other animals that live on the islands.  He tells me that a meteorite stuck at the very end of one of the largest islands in 1996.  He shows me where it hit, and indeed that part of the island is rubble compared to the rest, like something enormous and important has rolled down its side, and he tells me that the meteorite caused earthquakes in La Paz.  He says that the authorities never told the people of La Paz about the meteorite but told them the island had “settled!”

Louis is much into being an insider in La Paz and may be, I have no way of knowing!  He writes up the PRI candidate for Governor of La Paz Sur in his paper and says that if the man wins he, Louis, will get six more years of a government subsidy for his news paper.  I ask him what if the other party wins and he looks at me and grins and says “Den - I am fucked!” 

When Louis and his daughter go to bed down I wonder up to the foremost top deck where I can best see the forward course of the ship.  This is the biggest ship I have ever been on – bigger by far then the one I crossed the English Channel on!  There are four decks and the very tallest and most forward one is where I go to watch our progress toward Mazatlán! The night is dark and I can see little save the great whirling of white water the ship creates, in a scalloped pattern, across the surface of the water and becomes the ships wake as it passes behind.  All of this dynamic and curling and churning away from the bow – the only thing to be seen on the water in the night.  And of course I do that which I do and I fall in love with a moment and say that I will return! I will let Louis show me his coves and beaches and climb the mountains of these islands of his (I suspect) imagination. Maybe I will even meet Maria.

Two boys, in their twenties, tall and slim and lovely as swans come to the deck looking for a place to be together.  They settle on the bench behind me.  One sits and the other lays out and puts his head on his friends lap - and the sitting boy strokes his friends face  and hair – they were beautiful. It rains a little and the boys leave (I don’t see them again).  When the rain is done – it is now maybe 2:00 am.  I decide I will not even try to sleep but will wonder the ship for the rest of the night and learn it.  I go down a deck and another  until I recognize the “selon” where all the  people - save those in “Tourist” who have cabins - are seated and asleep in rows and rows of seats.   Then I go back up and wonder to the back of the ship on a deck overlooking a work area.  The Work Deck below me is sorted out with reals of rope and other nautical equipment that I don’t recognize!  I go to the back as far as I can out of the light and lean on the railing.  It seems I am alone save for a hugely fat man on the edge of the passenger deck below me who has brought blankets and pillows and is laid out on a bench in front of the work deck like a great mess of flesh taking it’s needed sleep!

I lean on the railing and look back at the wake of the ship!  Only that in the darkness – I drift away for a long tired revere. 

“What time is it.” I hear.

I look to see if this could be addressed to me!  On the railing to my right I see a tall figure in white pants and a brown head under a leather cap and he is looking at me.  I look at my watch but cannot see the time.  I hold my arm out to him to read it for himself if he can.  He moves toward me and reads the time out loud. 

He does not look at me and so I am able to look at him while he reads the time and when he leans on the railing and looks out to sea.  He is tall and thin, his neck is long and the curve of his back and hips suggests a boy, shy and not able to say more now that he has asked the time.  I look at his long elegant body.  See how his legs merge into his long torso and how his slim shoulders provide efficiently for his long neck and then to his head which is smaller in the bottom, the jaw, but blossoms widely up into the cranium.   He has great large eyes and seems to be a young man of mind more than appetite!       

“Es dificial a dormir” I say

He does not answer but it is not out of any sense of calmness or certainty but rather because he does not know what to say.  He does not look at me or react in any way.  I have the strong sense that he has started something but has not an idea what do with it now.

“Usted a Mazatlán?”  I ask.

He looks at me straight in the face for the first time and with no reserve, like a boy who is addressed by an elder.  He quickly agrees he is going to Mazatlán.  He grins and I can see the large white Mexican teeth and his unusually large eyes and the whites seem strikingly white and the brown seems black in the dark against the sea. 

We strike up a conversation in this method, Me speaking in Spanish when I can, resorting to English out of frustration, his being fluent at moments in English and helpless at others, resorting to rapid Spanish that I don’t understand.  He grins at me, worm but  reserved grins, and gives me shy smiles and he asks me questions.  Am I alone?  Am I married?  Do I have children? Where am I going? How long will I be in Mazatlán?  These are questions that I recognize.  They are the questions of someone who is trying to see who you are and if your life may mean anything to themselves – if only for a day or a few hours.  But I am aware as well that he does not really know why he is asking these questions and would be shocked if he knew what he had already reveled to me.  He does not look at me very often but looks out to sea as he talks.  I find that if I don’t look at him but look out to sea as well, he will turn his head and watch me as I answer his questions.  Then I discover that if I let him look at the side of my face without disturbing him by looking at him, I can, when I want to see how he is reacting or what his mood is as he speaks, turn suddenly toward him when he is looking at me and his eyes will hold mine.  I discover further that these few moment of full eye contact get longer and more meaningful as we continue to talk. 

I ask him if he has a girl friend and he says yes he does, her name is ‘Betty’.  'Betty' I almost say out loud, but I don’t?   How long? I ask.  Six months.  He says that she is very much in love with him – he does not say that he is very much in love with her.  I ask him if he will marry Betty, he shrugs lightly as though it is not an important question.    He asks me if I want to ask him any questions: “Usted tiene un pragunta por me?”  When ever he can’t think of something to say he says this.  I look at him and I ask him if he wants to have babies.  His answer is again a shrugged one.  He wants to know if I have a girlfriend.  I tell him that I was married for many years and that I had a long relationship with a woman after that but that I haven't had a girlfriend for a few years now.  “Porque?”  he says.  “Porque yo tengo un boyfriend” I say.   I look over at him and his eyes hold mine but reveal nothing, he is quite still, careful not to react.  After a while he looks away and I wonder if, after all, I have said to much and frightened him.  After a long silence he asks “Que es el nombre”.   “El nombre?” I say.  “Su ‘boyfriend’”.  “Es Kelvin”  I say.  “No Mexicano?” he says.  “No en La Paz?”  “No.”  I say, “Kelvin es Americano, es Puerto Rican”  “Que color?” he asks.  I don’t have a word for brown!  The boy says: “Es blanko?  Es Negro?”  “No” I say.  He uses the Spanish word for brown and points to his own forarm and says with some satisfaction: “like me!”  “Si!” I say, “exactamente mismo usted.”  “you like!” he says.  I catch his eyes and say slowly in English, “Yes, I like! very much.”   

A man comes out on deck to smoke and stands nearby.  The boy looks at his own watch this time.  It is nearing 4:00am.  The boy looks at the smoking man and goes quiet.  When the man finishes his cigarette he does not leave but continues to stand nearby.  I wonder myself if the man is interested in our conversation – or if he can hear it at all since we are back further on the boat then he is and the breeze is blowing clearly toward us not him- the wind will carry our words away.  The boy keeps glancing at the man.  After a while I suggest that we walk and lead the way to the forward deck where I had seen the two boys earlier.   The deck is empty now.

The boy is tired, as am I.  We both lean over with our arms on the top railing which is quite high and with our heads on our arms and our faces toward each other – in this position it is almost necessary to stand up to break eye contact.  “Un pregunta por me?” he says.  “Si” I say, “Usted y Betty – Sexo?”  “Sexo?” he says.  “Si, sexo!”  He says, “me y Betty? Si!” then he stands up and moves back from the railing by an arms length.  I do not move but remain with my head on my arms looking up at him.  He seems to be thinking about something that has broken the mood.  Then he says “No” but does not seem to be addressing me.  “No?” I say.  “No!” he repeats.  “No que?” I say.  “No sexo”. He says.  “No sexo con Betty?” I say this softly so that he will not think I am laughing at his little fib.  “Comprendo.” I say.  He looks down at me sternly.  I repeat: “Comprendo. Es bueno”  After a moment he grinns the sweetest grin I have seen on his face and leans back down into the railing looking at me.  “Curioso?” I say. “Curioso?”, he answers.  “Si” I say.  He is pretending he does not understand, then gives it up.  “Curioso, Si.”  He takes this very seriously and looks at me so that I will know that he does.  “Curioso por sexo con hombre?” I say directly into his eyes.  He does not look away but nods quickly – he has given away the secret away now, he knows he can’t take it back or play with it further.   “Me gusto usted.” I say to him.  “gustame?” he says looking at me.  “Si.” “Me gusto sexo con usted.”  “Si.” He says, “sexo. Si, es bueno.”                    

But of course it is out of the question since we are on a ship and neither of us has a state room.  I tell him that we can find a hotel in Mazatlán.   He says he has no money for a hotel and I say that I have to have a hotel anyway.  He looks out to sea in the direction the ship is heading, as though visualizing and tells me he must catch his bus to his hometown, which is not Mazatlán, as I was assuming, at eleven o'clock" he says.  I say when will you be back in Mazatlán.  He says, that he may be able to come back in to Mazatlán tomorrow.  We agree that we will meet at the famous statue of the fisherman out on La Playa at 10:00.  He says that he does not know if he will be able to come and I say it does not matter, I will be there, if he is not I will understand.

This morning I was at the famous statue of the fisherman and  of course he was not.  I was relieved actually, that he did not show up, and not at all surprised.